Tuesday, August 18, 2009

pictures to fight off sadness






On Monday morning I got the girls up for school. Instead of bounding out of bed Adelle told me she was so tired and wanted to know if she had to go today. I informed her that yes she did, while I was sorry she was tired sadly that is not a good enough reason to miss school. So onto the bus she and Cora went. After school was out I was waiting at the bus stop. When Adelle and Cora exited the bus Adelle came running to my arms and immediately melted down into sobs. When I asked her what happened she just said she was tired and really missed me. So we went home, had a snack and cuddled and all was well with the world. Then, right before Adelle went to sleep she said "Mom, my teacher said that I should bring a picture of you to school with me so I can look at it when I miss you and feel sad." Okay, I thought that is doable. I sent Adelle with the two pictures above. I told her maybe she should put them in her folder so they won't get lost. She told me that was a bad idea because then the teacher would think they were for her and she would keep them and look at the pictures. Okay, I told her do what you want with them then. Today when she got off the bus she was happy and smiley. I asked her if the pictures helped her today. She said "No, I didn't even look at them." Well, that's that. I guess if at some point she gets sad the pictures are there. Otherwise I may need to be the one looking at pictures when I get lonely. I miss my little cuddle buddy, Adelle.

Friday, August 14, 2009

It is so quiet








The kids started back to school on Wednesday. Elise is in 7th grade, Cora 3rd and Adelle Kindergarten. They were so excited, especially Adelle. When the bus arrived she ran on and yelled over her shoulder "bye Mom". So cute. I thought for sure I would be sad or cry but I am not. It is nice to have them all in school. I love our time together but it is good with me that they are growing up. That doesn't mean I don't have my break down and cry moments, like when Adelle lost her first tooth, but I feel really good about it. The weird thing is the quiet. I don't start back to school myself for another week. By eight in the morning everyone is gone and off to school and the only sounds in the house are my breathing and sometimes the air conditioner running. But it is a good quiet, a peaceful quiet. I love the noise I hear right now of my kids in the family room playing and talking, but I love the quiet too. I thought I would be bothered, but it is nice to just be still and hear my own thoughts. The buzzing in my head slows down and I can actually focus. I guess this means besides my kids I am growing up too. I am learning to be by myself as well as be with my family. Change is good and I am enjoying this new change in all our lives.